I haven’t written here for a while, not for lack of activity or thought, but rather because life is going in so many directions that I haven’t been particularly good about sitting still and thinking in a focused manner. And really, to effectively write something, sitting still and focusing is a good starting point.
I used to have a regular habit of journaling, nightly, and for periods of time it felt like a necessary element of sanity. I realized a few months ago that I had gotten out of the habit, so I bought a fresh new journal and placed it next to my bed. It turns out that I haven’t written in it much, and when I have, it reads like an oddly formal update about my life, as though the pages of my journal require me to keep current notes on the events unfolding. I dimly remember a time when I used that space to clear my head in the evenings, to explore my emotions and record them, so they could stop rattling around inside me. Maybe lately I don’t have such busy thoughts. Or, more likely, they are so busy that a journal isn’t the right tool to collect them.

This little dude was relaxing in the umbrella stand all afternoon. Maybe he was thinking.
Which brings me to my point, really. I’m considering lists. Not in place of journaling, necessarily. But as a way to get my thoughts down on paper without trying so hard. Lists as an interim solution until my brain activity slows from a fast paced zipping about mode to a more reasonable speed where thoughts can more fully develop. I have one of those notebooks with the spirals at the top and pages divided into two columns, and I’m going to start making lists of all kinds. As a child, I had a very similar notebook. In those heady days of elementary school, I would label the columns with headings (often, “love” and “hate”) and then list names of classmates boldly down each side. I didn’t go back to revise them over time, but I had many fresh versions, and the names changed and shifted over time. Eventually I started creating a third column that was labeled “like” and most names migrated into that list. I found that notebook about 15 years ago, and perhaps there were other lists contained in those pages, but it is these definitive love/hate ones that I remember discovering.
For now, I’ll make less divisive lists. I have already started categories such as “plants to grow” or “favorite meals” or “things to do in the summer” or “places to visit” and it is going okay so far. I’ve discovered, however, that to ignore the column structure and write straight across the page is a challenge for me. My early listing instincts were to create comparisons, and it still feels appropriate to do so, or at least to use the left column for ideas and the right column for related notes. Perhaps, in the spirit of my younger self, I should really set up binaries such as “plants I love” and “plants I hate” or “places to visit” and “places to avoid” – neatly divided lists, side by side, to keep my thoughts nicely organized.





named), but didn’t do so until well into the winter. Our chickens took so long to ramp up that we didn’t really notice a decline in production during the colder and shorter days of winter.


